Obsessed

Definitions:

on : state of consciousness

off: state of unconsciousness

" i am not dying to live

i am living to die

So let me enjoy my time here."

" Hope i had once

Now i am hoping against hope

And i don know when this desperation ends"

I prefer to be off thats y i go to " G.R". A little away fr

m my home and on the way to my

office. Nobody recognizes me der. The boys der wear black pants and black coat over white shirt. They always smile at me and dats y i call them the smiling assassins. They serve me whatever brand of poison i order.

Once it gave me the courage to express myself. Now it gives me the calmness to suppress myself. When i am on, i go down the memory lanes which haunts me.... i prefer to be off....Yes i know this is temporary relief or as u said may be i am coward or running away frm reality but nobody, not even u, know how much i loved....

i know i hav lost her for ever but i am hoping against hope that she will be mine in this life or next.

as told to ASR